You know how when you’re right in the middle of living through a very hard lesson in life, you don’t actually see the lesson. You’re lost in the moment hoping your ending will read “it all worked out” or “we survived!”. I feel like that has been what life is like lately, and as much I want to share only the positives in life, I feel its my duty to fill you in on whats been happening lately. For the most part I want to share this because it’s not all sunshine and rainbows as Instagram would like to have you believe, there are real lives behind those staged photos and expertly edited posts. Real lives that go through hard times, hardships and things that just aren’t instagramable.
This all started almost two months ago, when Tony got home from school with a graduation paper in hand. He had finished his last few months of the in-class portion, and left with promises of going to work immediately. Yet, here we are two months later and not one single offer has been presented. Why doesn’t he just go work anywhere? You might be wondering. Well you see because he’s technically on the wait list for a Union position (the benefits are amazing btw) and he could get a call any day. He had a few people call but nothing stuck, most likely because they knew he would leave them as soon as he got “The Call” from the union.
Just a few months into our relationship Tony and I were driving home from Alberta, we talked about our respective journey with luck so far. I wouldn’t consider myself unlucky but I also wouldn’t consider myself a lucky person either, I’m just coasting along. While Tony on the other hand has no luck, proving my theory three years later..a sick (maybe even chicken pox covered) baby, a flat tire and still no job. But I do believe in gratitude, and boy do we have things to be grateful for! We have each other, our little family and we have health. Those are the things that money and good jobs can’t buy, and thats really all we need right now.
My point of this story isn’t to tell you “it worked out” or “we survived” but to share the rather trivial pursuit of “The Plan”, the messy middle just so my future self can say “It was all worth it”.